Sunday, 4 September 2011

Buddha could do it.

To all my readers (if you are out there)

The week or two since my last post have been horrible. I haven't felt like writing here simply because I have lost my mojo for running, When I signed myself up to do this challenge I knew it would be hard, and I knew my body would disagree with it, just like a young child would disagree to being fed sprouts with a broccoli sauce, but I never really comprehended the amount of work, the limitless amount of things that would hinder my training, the amount of consideration that goes into diet and fluids, breathing, running form,  posture AND the pain I would suffer. I really was that naive to think it was a simple matter of putting some trainers on, running around for a bit. EASY.


I have a new respect for Madam Marathon.

If you are wondering why the stocks and shares of Deep Heat have gone up, you're looking in the right place. I have had blisters the size of gumballs, a small metatarsal fracture on my foot, chronic stitch, severe groin pain, oh and did I mention the vomiting?

If Google had some form of search result monitoring system, I'm pretty sure the google men in black would have been round my house to rush me to A&E, or failing that, register me dead.

There have been tears and tauntrums that have made me look like a mad woman. I have always considered myself to have a strong will, but running.... well, running is my nemisis. Who would have thought that putting one foot in front of the other and kind of hopping would break even the strongest of minds. I would like to see Buddha try. Perhaps a few readers out there are looking at this and shaking their heads, as if to say 'get over it' but for me it's hard, and this blog for me is all about the ups and the downs, not just the ups (although I would like some of those now please) 

On my latest 6 mile 'run' (more of a hobble) I was in floods of tears. The passers-by must have thought something traumatic had happened. Oh no. If a friend was there, they would have reasured them and said:-

'Oh don't worry. That's just Ro. She's just attempting to run, nothing to be alarmed about, she cries a lot when she runs, not sure why'

Instead, I had to drag myself home whilst other runners sprinted past. 

Whilst out and about in town recently I came across one of those Halmark -type posters, splashing waves on a sunset backdrop, quite beautiful, The words read...

'“Focus on the journey, not the destination. Joy is found not in finishing an activity but in doing it.

Now, pre-running Rowen would have embraced this sentiment, smiled and walked away. Post-running girl ... well, I looked at the words, shook my head in a patronising way, the same way I had shaken my head at the white plimsoles. I gritted my teeth, smiled, laughed to myself and thought:

' To whoever wrote this: I will kindly allow you to run a mile or two in my shoes and see how you feel about this after. OK?'

(An example)

This is going to be hard, but I'm no quitter.


  1. I'm no deep thinker, no philosophizer. But I will tell you this. If you keep at it, it will- eventually- get easier. How do I know that? From my own HORRIBLE, PAINFUL, OUCHY-filled journey ;). I have suffered various injuries, cried more than once on a run. But I refuse to give in. All my life I have had people tell me "You cant's" You know. "You can't do this/that/or other" I HATE people like that, so I won't quit running. Because it would simply be MYSELF telling me "I can't." Nope, no good. Won't do that. Keep going hun, know that little old me here in Utah (u.s of a) is cheering for you...LOUDLY...there...did you hear me?!?!!?! ;)

  2. Don't beat yourself up about what you are going through - going from nothing to a marathon is bloody hard work! You have plenty of time to work yourself up to the distance. This time last year I started a 5k plan, next did a 10k plan, then started my marathon training. If you aren't enjoying it, chances are you are working yourself too hard. Spend a week or so just going out an enjoying your runs without any time or distance targets. Find a nice route where you can be nosey and look at peoples houses and gardens - that's what I do and it really takes my mind off what I am doing!

    Oh and if you haven't yet heard of the Marathon Talk podcasts, they are fab.

  3. Thank you both of you, I can not express how lovely it is to know that people are supporting me, I really do need it, bth your comments have made my day :) I'm still not up do date on on this blogging stuff, so I thought I would tell you via this comment, when I work out who to send messages I will thank you persoanlly. Leanne I will take your advice and just go for a run, no mile target, just me, and try and enjoy it, thank you :) xx

  4. Hi there! I was looking for information about Hastings because of the great BBC series "Foyle's War" and came across your blog. It's a great effort you're making and sorry to hear you're not having an easy time of it right now. I am a non-competitive runner in middle age in the midst of my own running quest ( and I can relate how it's not always easy, and I occasionally get sidelined by injuries. But I also know that if you continue to work at it, it WILL gradually get easier, both physically and psychologically. And there WILL be moments where you'll feel better than you ever have, seemingly, and be glad you put in the effort. I don't think I could ever do an entire marathon -- a half-marathon (13.1 miles) is about the limit for me, it seems. So I admire your goal and wish you the best as you ramp up to doing it. All the best from a total stranger but fellow towards-the-back-of-the-pack runner.